I need to have an all out bitch fest, so here goes...
I go to the doctor wednesday and he is a new doctor. My old one whom I loved with all my heart apparently had to leave due to her MS getting worse. I now hate MS with a passion cause it took my Dr Stevens away. Anyhoo, I get this old dude, and old dude doctors tend to be...arrogant?? I dont know how else to put it. Well he obviously knew everything there was to know about medicine but guess what, I do too! I chose not to battle it out with this guy cause I increasingly am laying all my hopes in alternative therapies for everything wrong with me.
He does do SOME lab work I requested.He did a half a$$ check of my thyroid, and my T4 is borderline...like 1 point off from what they would consider abnormal...I have ALL the symptoms of hypothyroidism and some like my memory loss are severe.I have very little short term memory so if anyone out there has tried to email me or get anything out of me and I seem like I am on drugs, I am not. I have hypothyroidism and my short term memory is fried.Please forgive me and just keep wailing on me till you get a response LOL
He did check my iron cause he was more concerned about my iron than my thyroid...my concern lay in my thyroid but again he is not the one living in this fat vegan body and trying to do everything I am trying to do on half a brain and no energy. So we get the results back of my hemoglobin, and its 8. Keep in mind kiddies that hemoglobin should be 11 at the very least and I believe they consider you mildly anemic if its 11...I am 8. No wonder I feel like crap. How in gods name do I get everything done??!! Yeah I procrastinate like crazy but in the end I get it ALL done. SO I am severely anemic and I do have hypothyroidism regardless what arrogant a$$ says, and I have to treat this myself cause THEIR iron pills make me very sick in a very bad way and Mr Know it all smarty pants doctor wont give me levothyroxin (gives Doc the big middle finger)
I hit Bardstown rd...for those of you that live in Louisville you know this is where you go for "weird" stuff. I wish I lived there...GOD I WISH I LIVED THERE! I envy you highlanders!!!! Anyhoo back to the medicine....I go to the best health food store in the universe Amazing Grace Foods
I end up getting a bunch of vegan glucosamine, and something to kick my thyroid in the butt, and a multivitamin that mops the floor with all other multivitamins. It rules, seriously. I also found this great vitamin C powder that is 5 GRAMS of vitamin C per TEASPOON! OMG I now have glow in the dark urine, and I dont think thats normal....
I started taking all this stuff friday night, and I have to say I think i felt better on saturday...I seemed to have a bit more energy but it could just be a placebo effect.
So I mostly wanted to post this not only to vent but to let anyone know I am sick. I been sick like this for a while. I only bitch about my arthritis pain but I am really bad off in other ways too and I dont think I can keep up, so I am going to extend my "vacation" to the end of the month. I will take special orders for soap, and maybe 1 or 2 orders for bloomers, but I am not gonna let myself get swamped like I have been. Finances are better and I dont HAVE to. I need to focus on me right now cause if I dont there wont be a "me" to make no more soap or bloomers LOL Of course I want to have fun and make bloomers and soap LOL But as of right now I think I have all the orders I can take on for now. In my free time I will try to post some premade bloomers cause thats what you guys like!
And these holidays are coming up...I have a hard time getting into the "christmas" thinking cause we dont celebrate LOL. I always think its just cold outside, I dont have the "Christmas" mindset like everyone else...I am trying to do better with that in my soap shop though. i am focusing on seasonal scents and trying to get in stuff that the Christmas celebrating folks might like, but man, its hard trying to get into it LOL I dont "feel" it like everyone else, and we also dont watch TV so we arent being bombarded with it 24/7 too. So if I seem ditzy in the Christmas department, I am. I have not celebrated since 1999 for various reasons. I dont wish to spark a debate or step on toes...
but I have been Christmas free for a long time, and when I met Noor...well he never celebrated to begin with. it was a "christian" thing back in Malaysia, and something his family never partook of, and here he was astonished to find even the most sinful people participating in Christmas LOL Back there it was a religious holiday, but here its an EVERYBODY holiday. So when I found out he didnt celebrate either, well I fell in love again LOL Lots of things make me like his goofy ass...So each year we joke to each other, I ask him what he is getting his wife for christmas, and he will come off with some off color remark about diamonds are forever ROFLMAO! Or some other marketing ploy he seen on TV LOL We have fun with it, and its weird to us (non TV watchers) to see the shops immediatly transform from normal to Christmas hell practically overnight. I will always come home and tell him sometime in October or sooner, that Christmas must be coming the damn tinsel and lights are up in the stores. He comes back from an auto parts store yesterday telling me about Christmas music...with his half ass grin, he said it made him want to buy tools as gifts, LOL.
Its also funny when he works overtime at this time of year cause the people at work think he is working extra to buy Maylee a bunch of crap for Christmas LOL. I went thru that when I worked there with him...they thought we both were working hard to get Tyler a bunch of stuff, and then they would ask him what he was getting me for Christmas and Oh god it was just too funny. Those were good times, good times. I miss working with my husband. We got a lot done on our unit and we had fun too. I miss it.
OK so here I am wailing on Christmas....(sigh) Its the christmas music in the stores , it does this to me LOL.
So I am asking for all your "high hemoglobin" vibes right now. i want to get it up to 12 at least...I never have known myself to be above 11 really...but i am shooting for 12, and I go to be rechecked sometime around...December 25th...hehehehe....So I need to get more spinach and keep taking this awesome multivitamin, and hope for the best. I can do it!